This is not
to say that I have always, and every day, loved my work. Acquisition program
management in the Department of Defense can prove extremely frustrating when
you deal with bureaucracy; you may even have a project in which you have
investigated a great deal of time, effort, and care thrown on the trash heap in
an instant. Sometimes that is just the way things happen, or so it would seem,
and the aftermath leaves you quite discouraged, angry, even ready to quit. But,
more often than not, I have also been blessed to see the things that I poured
my heart and soul into turn out to be successful. A major acquisition strategy
briefing was approved and even praised, an entire fleet of aircraft was
delivered to an operational command – a group of pilots and maintainers – and
is flying missions today, to everything in between has been the result of work
that I have done. I should hasten to add that I never did anything entirely on
my own but, as I enjoy the most, always with a team of similarly motivated
professionals.
As an Air
Force Officer, my most enjoyable and intrinsically rewarding times came through
the leadership of teams, or entire organizations, on a successful project or
program. I especially enjoyed the challenge of taking a program that was in
trouble (over budget, behind schedule, and/or not meeting its technical
performance requirements) and turning it around. When I took over programs that
were seemingly hopeless, and made them successful, I felt as though I was doing
not only meaningful work but also doing what I was “born to do”. I thrive on
challenges and even chaos, meeting those challenges, and turning chaos into the
orderly execution of an acquisition program. I’ll give you an example of one mental
and physical challenge that I will never forget.
Back in
2001, when I was assigned to the Joint Strike Fighter (now the F-35) program
and we were in source selection to select the winning contractor of the
competition to enter the Engineering and Manufacturing Development (EMD) phase
of the program, I was working especially late one evening with one other guy
still in the office. Around 9:30 in the evening, the Marine Corps two-star
general who was the Program Director at the time came into the office and told
me that he wanted me to brief the senior acquisition leadership of both the Air
Force and Navy the following morning at 8:00. He wanted a detailed briefing on
my (and my team’s) work on avionics open systems architecture – what we had
learned, and what we thought about the contractor’s demonstrated abilities in
that area. He told me that I could brief whatever I wanted and what I thought
was right. As he left, he said that I needed to be in his office the next
morning at 6:00 to go over my briefing. The two of us left in the office looked
at each other and said simultaneously, “It Looks like we’re working!” We
finished the briefing and left the office at 2:30 in the morning, then drove
the 43 miles back to the commuter lot where I had left my car at 5:00 the
previous morning. I drove to my house, took an hour nap, shaved, and put on a
fresh uniform, and met my ride in the same commuter lot at 4:30. We were in the
general’s office by 6:00, and I began my briefing promptly at 8:00. The senior
leadership proved extremely interested in what I had to say; they asked many
questions and my briefing lasted 90 minutes. It was among the best briefings
that I ever gave and when it was over, I felt elated! Then the fatigue set in
and the rest of the day felt almost endless until I could get back home and get
some sleep. But I was motivated! I felt extremely good about what I was doing
and had done. These are the kinds of challenges I lived for.
Now retired
from the military and working as a defense support contractor/consultant, I
don’t get nearly the thrills that I used to get as a leader in the military. My
role now is generally advisory; I generate reports, I work with some pretty
massive spreadsheets dealing with budgetary issues, and I provide advice to senior
leaders. But so long as my work and my advice are appreciated and put to good
use, I find great satisfaction in what I do. I am in a spot where I am paid
sufficiently well that the issue of money is off the table and all that is left
are the intrinsic motivators. As always, I do what I do first and foremost to
provide for my family. But beyond that, I do what I do because I believe in the
objectives of our program and I believe that my work adds value. If it were
otherwise, I would be looking for other work.
I am also at
the stage now where I have a strong desire to give back to the profession, so I
mentor junior government civilian and military members who work with me. I
enjoy teaching them about program management, and I enjoy seeing them succeed
in part because of the help that I was able to give them. For me, it has always
been about achieving the mission or objectives in a team setting. Seeing a new
aircraft parked on the ramp and knowing that I had something to do with putting
it there gives me a feeling of deep satisfaction. And the brilliant and
motivated people that I have had the privilege of meeting and working with across
the years has made my work so much more interesting. I have had opportunities
and experiences that many people my age have never had. These things have kept
me motivated throughout my career as both an Officer and a civilian.